Massive Fuck Up!

So this morning I woke up and i weighed 196.6...
Down 0.2 from yesterday.

Today I had a sandwich that my friend made me eat.
it was probably 500 cals...

And now I'm eating these cookies my mom bought me.
100 times 3

So far today, I've had 800 cals...

wow...

lets go purge these cookies and see what I'm at.
200? ....

yep. 197...
and now i have to go eat with my family....
wonderfull...
lets see how well i do after that.

199.8 after eating...
which was probably 500 cals.

Now I'm back to 196.6 after purgeing but if i were on my
schedule I would be 195.
It's not going to work, is it?

1300 cals today...
if i dont eat more. which i probably will because im a fat fuck.

Fuck!! Why can't I just stop eating?!
I hate myself.