School Again

I found out today that one of my friends knows I have an ED. I didn't tell her I know, but im so pissed off. She keeps bringing up little hints when im around her like today in bio. We were learning about the digestion system and we learnt about the stomach's sphincter's and she turned to me and said "that's the valve that opens to let your food come up if your bulimic." When I laughed and told her "that was random" she gave me a sad face and faced forward again. There's only one good thing about this, its the fact she noticed I was skinnier!!
That reminds me, I'm back down to 187.8!! On sunday, I was back up to 192.8, so that means I lost 5 pounds in 2 days!! The problem is, this only lasts for about a couple days then im going to have to eat something and keep it in my stomach. The best way to loss weight is to keep mixing up your caloric intake. It confuses your metabolism and keeps it working well.
The amazing thing about all of this is that I've been bingeing both today and yesterday on a lot of foods like lasagna, cookies, hot chocolate, ice cream, sandwiches ect., and I was able to get it all up. What I usually do is go to school, not eat any breakfast, don't take any money or food, come home, check my weight, binge on what ever crap is in the house, purge it, then I check my weight again till im exactly where I started or lighter.
I just wish my friend didn't know, they're are always on my case about my problems and I hate talking to people about them. It's weird but I only like talking to strangers about it; I don't understand myself sometimes.
I know no one reads this blog, but I like to pretend I'm talking to someone who feels like they are alone and are suffering the same thing that I am.
Trust me, it's easier writing everything down, it makes it so much more handleable. I also feel like when I'm reading other Pro-Ana/Mia blogs that it's easier to keep the food in the kitchen...
Well, cheers!!

-Sam;;
PeaceEZ