So...

Well the last time i weighed myself I was at 188.6 ...
it's an improvement, although...

tomorrow I'm getting my hair extensions. I'm sooo
excited except for the fact it's going to make me gain
a whole bunch of weight.
I'm going to be back in the 90ies... and it took me
forever to get out of them...

I know.. I know.. it's not real body fat, but i just hate
the way that big fat "9" looks.

Fuck, maybe i might be in the 200's again.
I doubt it weighs 12 pounds tho.
I just hate seeing those little digits showing me big
numbers.

I'm trying so hard to be 100% excited for this hair,
but all i can think of is gaining weight...
I hate how fat i am.

i just need to stay strong.

-Sam;;
PeaceEZ